We are all told to do it. Step out of the comfort zone. Okay, I understand this on an intellectual level. Its about growing and learning. However, when your anxiety rushes at the very thought of stretching one single hair out of the zone you so lovingly call comfortable, how do you actually force your frozen mind to move?
I am not a thrill seeker or someone who has a need for the spotlight. I am however, someone who has always known her basic self , known I have a voice and had a willingness to use it. When I was in my late twenties I was struck by an overwhelming urge to write. A story welled up inside me and I had to let it out. I turned on my computer, waiting for the dial tone (that’s the olden days!) and then, I actually closed my eyes and let the words fall out. It took me probably a year before I let anyone see those words, and only a select few. Since then I’ve written more things but never put them out there. This blog, twenty years after that moment is my first step out of the comfort zone. I won’t lie, it wasn’t easy. I was nervous about being vulnerable and exposed. The catalyst was doing a digital media class where this medium is an assignment. Some background for you – I love school and am a giant nerd. Plus, I’m a rule follower, so when the teacher says post on your blog, I do!